Love is blind!
That’s what I thought when my love asked me to be his bride.
Why would a man take a broken woman to call his own? Physically torn down. Emotionally broken. Spiritually young.
I was messed up. Had issues. Lived in shame.
But he saw through all that to what I would become. Called me his butterfly. Trusted God to tame me.
I didn’t know how to cook, clean or love a husband. I was damaged goods.
I burnt dinner, couldn’t clean a bathroom and spent too much
money. He patiently taught, encouraged,
prayed.
But then the impossible happened. The shame-filled caterpillar finally came out
of her cocoon a full fledged butterfly.
She dreamed big dreams and he made them happen.
Her passion burned and he fueled the
fire.
She took risks and he jumped with
her.
He never told her she could not do it. Never said it was
Impossible. He gave her wings to fly and
then sat back and watched. He watched
her become brave. He watched her become
free. He watched her soar.
Isn’t that how God works? Sees what we will be, instead of
what we have been. Loves us not as we
should be, but as we are. Gives us wings
so we can fly?
I am the woman I am today in a large part because of my
man. He trusted God when others told him
to not marry me. He saw me for who I
am. Now, after 22 years of trudging
through issues, loosing kids, gaining kids with trauma, two almost fatal
births, failure, success, tears, anger, joy, police, abuse, fostering, adoption
and hanging on to the robe strings of God , I say I would do it all again.
I would say “I do” again.
Love is blind? I think to a certain extent. We had no idea what we were in for on our
blissful wedding day. But I say that
love is the only way to see. To see God
turn trauma into healing. Anger into
forgiveness. Failure into
redemption.
Truly, Love’s eyes are wide open. And they see you for who you are. Where you
are. How you are.
As I turned on my wedding day to look into the starry eyes
of my love, I choose now to turn and face the One who can see all of me. Accept all of me. Change all of me.
And I am set free to fly higher.
